Here is an edited version of some free writing I did at a Writing Retreat on 19.05.21:
So I think my first major meltdown was when I got given a new laptop which was a Surface Laptop 3, it came and it was super nice in a rose gold colour, so I was over the moon. We had to set it all up by ourselves and install all the software so you can imagine how time-consuming this was, anyway spent a couple of days getting it all set up and the wifi connection wasn’t working. It wouldn’t hold a stable connection with the Wifi and was basically unworkable. I spent hours/days with IT to try and resolve this while also trying to improve my Wifi in my flat at the same time but we still couldn’t get the new laptop to connect correctly so they sent me another laptop this time a black one and I really wanted to try and get the gold one working… I know it sounds materialistic but it was so pretty!!! But anyway repeated the steps on the black laptop the get that up and running, and it seemed to have the same issue, so I was comparing and contrasting the 2 new laptops to which one was working better, they wanted me to send one of them back and I had the black one all boxed up, ready to go because as I said I really wanted to keep the gold one. Anyway, the Addison Lee guy came to pick it up, and literally while he was at the door I made the brash decision to send back the gold one, so quickly packed it up, while it was still warm, then opened the black one, to realise it had the exact same issues because it was my Wifi that was the problem!!! *exploding head emoji*
I was so stressed over such a menial decision, that I basically had a meltdown and had to go for a walk, it was only 3pm, but I just was not in a good state to work, and felt so emotionally drained from the stress and the decision being on my shoulder to decide and determine what was going wrong with the laptops and decipher if it was my Wifi or an issue with the device itself. So that was my first melt down.
Sound so ridiculous now but lockdown just makes you do crazy things.
